Monthly Archives: September 2015

Unemployed: Part II

The excitement has worn off and has been replaced with complete and utter boredom.

Often while I was employed I would think that if only I didn’t have to work I would have so much time to get things done. My house would be spotless, because I would have time to clean. I would be in great shape because I would have plenty of time to work out and cook nutritious meals. I would finally write that novel I’ve been dreaming about writing since childhood. I’d take a photography class. Learn something new. The possibilities seemed endless!

You know how many of the above things actually happened while I’ve had all this time? None. None of the things. I’ve made half-hearted attempts here and there, but not having a job doesn’t give you more motivation to do anything. If anything, it gives you less. There’s no reason for me to wake up at any particular time in the morning. It requires, for me, at least, a great amount of willpower and coffee to convince myself to do anything more strenuous than sitting on the couch bingeing on Netflix. Without a job to schedule my day around, I’ve found myself without any kind of schedule or routine, and creating one from nothing has turned out to be harder than it sounds.

Another thing that has become a nuisance is requesting my unemployment payment each week. I really shouldn’t complain, since I desperately need that payment and I’m lucky to have it, but the novelty of requesting it has worn off and I find myself claiming it at the last possible second each week. I’ve gotten so lazy that the thirty seconds of “work” it takes to get the unemployment payment seems like a burden. It could be a lot worse – instead of having to physically go to an unemployment office I just have to log on to a website and tell them yes, I am still unemployed and yes, I am still looking for a job.

Looking for a job has also lost the excitement factor. At the beginning of my job hunt, every posting was like a shiny new opportunity full of potential. Now, the decent job listings feel like they’re few and far between and none of them even sound remotely appealing. All the drive and determination I felt at the beginning of my job hunt is slowly fading away.

Basically, being unemployed has gone from making me feel like the world is my oyster to making me feel like the laziest human on the planet. The last few weeks I’ve at least tried to go to bed around the same time and set an alarm for the same time in the morning, which has helped immensely, but I still go through periods where I’m at a loss as to what to do with myself. At this point I can’t wait to find a job just so I have something to do.

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Summer 2015 Recap

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Summer 2015 was a DOOZY. It all started Memorial Day weekend, when N and I got engaged! It feels both not real and like we’ve just always been engaged. From there we threw ourselves into summer like a coupla animals. N built us a firepit in the backyard, which we barely used (damn bugs) but are deeply fond of. He came to the beach with me MULTIPLE times, which is unheard of.

In June I got rear-ended and got to drive a sweet, sweet minivan for a month while my car was being fixed. Still miss that thing. Helefab herself came to New England TWICE this summer, much to my delight. I spent a great afternoon up in Portland with her.

Fourth of July happened in there somewhere, with multiple sets of fireworks and time spent with friends. There was a trip up to Ogunquit and swimming in the icy cold ocean. We sat in traffic for the worst FOUR HOURS of my life going down to Foxwoods for a night.

Concerts also happened! So many concerts, which is so unlike me. I saw Dashboard Confessional, the Ataris (a dream since high school), and had an absolutely amazing, drunken time at Nelly/TLC/New Kids on the Block with my squad.

In June I also found out I was losing my job. It’s been a roller coaster of emotions. However, it has given me tons of free time to spend with N adventuring.

IMG_8192The end of July brought the annual Cape Cod trip with PERFECT weather and beach lounging and kayaking.

August was jam packed with parties, including a surprise pool party for N’s 30th that was a huge success. I also surprised him with a day full of fun, including him getting to fly a plane and brew his own beer. I really outdid myself this year.

Around the house saw a lot of hallway-centric updates being made, and not much else. Without me working we’ve been super budget conscious. The hallway got painted and the mudroom got a huge facelift (more to come on that).

As usual the last weekend in August was St. Anthony’s feast in the North End, which involved much, much food and a peek inside Old North Church of Paul Revere fame. I’d actually never been inside! It was churchy.

Labor Day weekend was low key and involved a motorcycle ride down to Concord for lunch and a historical cemetery stroll. We finished the weekend up with another pool party at N’s parents and an unofficial end of summer sunset. Phew! I’m exhausted. This was a great summer and I am SO READY for fall. Bring on the crisp air and pumpkin, pumpkin, pumpkin!

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My Love Affair With White Paint

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hallway + view into dining room as they looked during the open house

Before we even bought our house, I knew I wanted to paint the entire interior white. White walls everywhere! A blank canvas! Then the naysayers (my mother, it’s always my mother) started voicing their opinions: “White? Everywhere? That’s so boring!”

Was it boring? Was I clever and crafty and artsy and designy enough to handle white walls? Could my HOUSE handle white walls? Was it too dark? Were the ceilings too low? The rooms too small? I had no idea. All I knew was I was painting something white, come hell or high water. I painted the connected living and dining room with Behr’s Polar Bear. We chose Behr because we can’t afford Benjamin Moore and seriously, IT IS PAINT. There’s no way I would be able to tell the difference between a $30 can of paint and a $50 can of paint if you paid me. We are young barely-professionals and Ben Moore is just not in our price range and it’s not in the price range of 99% of the people I know In Real Life. I know home bloggers and interior designers love him but I am not a home blogger nor interior designer. I’m just a girl, living in the world, and wishing it was less expensive.

Anyway, Polar Bear is a nice, warmer toned white that I thought would be good in the space since it doesn’t get a ton of light all day. N liked it because it was named after a “winter animal”. Whatever.

The walls were painted and I loved it. Everything looked fresh and clean and the creamy white was a nice contrast to our dark floors. (Have I talked about our floors? I need to talk about our floors. Another post for another day.)

Yet still, the words of the naysayers were in my mind, so I figured when it was time to paint the hallway and the kitchen I would choose a color. A nice, pale gray. (Not making huge leaps and bounds here as far as color goes, I know.) I spent at least an hour, if not more, in Home Depot agonizing over the paint swatches and finally choosing a lovely pale gray. Grays are tricky, because a good, true gray is shockingly hard to find. Mix some black and white people, why isn’t that A Thing? Every single gray has a tinge of blue, or reads green in certain light, or is really quite beige when you put it next to another swatch. It was an absolute nightmare. I finally settled on one and brought it home though, and today I got to painting.

I did one coat and then stopped to let it dry and as it dried I assessed. The color was beautiful, just liked I knew it would be, but it was not at all right for the space. It was coming across very blue and we have absolutely no blue in any of the rooms leading into the hallway. It was wasn’t meshing as well as I’d hoped. So I went on Pinterest and looked up best gray colors. At this point I was so frustrated I was willing to pay more for the damn Benjamin Moore if it was going to be perfect. But the more I looked the more my gut said “Just use white! Paint it all whhhiiittteee!

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hallway + view into dining room as they look now (whhiiitttee)

When my gut speaks, I listen. It is always right. So I put the lid back on the paint can, hammered it shut, and labeled it “upstairs bathroom”. We don’t have an upstairs bathroom, BUT WE MIGHT SOMEDAY, and now we already have paint. Then I hustled to Home Depot for some more of my beloved Polar Bear paint and hustled back home to paint over the gray before N saw what I’d done and realized I had bought paint we didn’t need.

Man, am I glad I went with my gut. The hallway is a fresh white, and it looks so much more open and bright. I can’t wait to get in there and hang pictures to really add some color. Next up is the kitchen, and I cannot wait to see how transformative my cuddly Polar Bear is in there.

OH! Also, as I was waiting for them to mix my paint I saw this Glade Paint Additive sitting in a display on the counter. You pour the little packet of oil into your can of paint, mix it all up, and it scents your paint so it doesn’t smell like, well, paint. I chose Lavender Vanilla and now that the paint has dried it is like a lovely, light, wisp of a scent when you are walking down the hallway. Like I’ve just cleaned or done laundry, neither of which are usually true.

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